Train Tickets

“Father sat down on the edge of the narrow bed. "Corrie," he began gently, "when you and I go to Amsterdam-when do I give you your ticket?" I sniffed a few times, considering this. "Why, just before we get on the train." "Exactly. And our wise Father in heaven knows when we're going to need…

Name

“What’s in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet.” In Romeo and Juliet, Shakespeare leaves us with the question, do names even matter? He urges us to think, that they don't, oh but my sweet innocent flowers, they matter more than we know. Why else would…

Carry me

  I cried out "Praise Jesus" as my daughter's still frame lay below me, voiceless.  My tired body relaxed with a great force that only comes from immediate physical relief. It's as if my whole being, from head to toe to heart, exhaled.  I lay there in the eerie silence praising God because I did…

Mourning

One thing I didn't expect about grief is that my memory is terrible. I woke up this morning and for the life of me couldn't remember what I was planning to do today after lunch. It wasn't until Tim reminded me we had a sitter tonight, in order that I could go to our Women's…

Letters

Time is a strange thing these days. My concept of it is totally different than it used to be. Everyone around me is talking about how long this winter feels. You may think that I feel the same way, but honestly, I don't. It's gone so quickly because I've only been able to live one…

Normal

It's been almost a month since Helen arrived. A month that has felt like a lifetime and yet has passed in the blink of an eye. Today is her due date, one month exactly from the day she died. Thursday, a month from the day we found out, and Friday, one month from her birth.…

1.15.19

The first thing I thought when I woke up was, " I don't want to do today." I'm pretty sure it was the first thing I said too. After that, I don't remember much. I know Tim and I read the Bible together and prayed before our feet even hit the floor. I know this…